My Second World

"analyzing the MRI and PET scan and all the test results .. abnormal proteins have clogged up the veins in your brain .. affecting the brain cells ..

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sad story ..
based on a true story ..

i come to ur grave everyday
to talk to you
people tell me u cannt hear me because you're gone
i just tell them u might be gone in their eyes but not in mine ..
because u're still in my heart and u always will be ..
i cry when i think ..
but people ask me why ..
i just tell them how i felt abut u and that i still love u ..
and that i miss u so much ..

but people just tell me there's no point in still loving u ..
because u're gone and u will never coming back ..
and i agree with them ..
u're gone but u will never be forgotten and one day we will meet again ..
i promise ..
i pray to god everynight asking him to keep u safe ..
and i talk to him about meeting u again ..
i wanted to kill myself just so i could see ur face again .. in heaven ...

but then i knew u wouldnt want me to do that ..
i try to be happy but i cant when i know that i won't hear ur voice for along time ..
i always thought i could live without u ..
but i really feel cannt ..
i never thought u would have left me ..

my mom said u never left me , god just needed an angel ..
i ask god , can i be his next angel so i can be with you ..
but he never replies ..
i even ask god why ..
why did he have to take u ..
and make me hust so much ..
i dont think anyone really knows how much it hurts to be missing u ..
i hate u not being around ..
i wish i could even see u one last time ..
so i could say goodbye ..
no one understands me any more ..
no one understands that i will always love u ..
i never knew this would of happened ..
no one did ..
i wish that ..
that i could look back on the good times with u ..
but , that has all gone ..
everything has changed ..
and even thinking about it makes me want to cry ..
cry so MUCH ..
but my mom tells me not to cry ..
she told u were looking over me and u wouldnt want me to cry ..
i tell her im sorry but thats all i can do is ... cry ..
she told me i could look back at the good memories ..
but i said i can't do that with out him because i need him to be with me while we look back ..
and then she says why ...
so i replied i need to see his smile and feel his touch while we smile together and look at the good memories ..
then my mom said why dont u tell me and him the good memories ..
but then i tell her i wish i would tell him ..

she told me i can because u will always be there with me ..
then she said u would never give up in me , cos u love me too much ..